Sometimes our routine works. Like clockwork, we get things done on time and to our satisfaction. Life goes on.

Other times, it’s like you’ve woken up from hibernation and think “Oh man, I haven’t done (fill in the blank ______) in ages. Inevitably, you feel guilty. Why? Because you’re not living up to your own expectations. And furthermore, because your own expectations reflect what you assume to be the expectations of others.

We always seem to be putting on a show. For ourselves. For friends and loved ones. For perfect strangers. But that’s the nature of humanity, and being social creatures we place value on what others think. Because if they don’t think highly of us, they won’t like us… right?

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I digress. I’m still trying to break myself of this habit – of doing things for anyone but myself. And making sure that “doing things for the approval of myself” doesn’t so heavily reflect what I think others will approve of as well. That’s a difficult mental tie to break ๐Ÿ˜‰

Where am I going with all this disjointed mumbo-jumbo? I’ve been Little Miss Invisible lately. I’ve missed blog posts. I’ve neglected my new camera. I haven’t lifted my pen to paper to draw. I’ve been lazy. I’ve been watching too much TV. I’d like this post to serve as a reminder to myself to wake up!

Spring goals:

  1. Use the techniques I learned in photography and get out there and take photos
  2. Learn more about taking HDR photos, and DO IT
  3. Draw one thing a day, worst case scenario: just before bed
  4. Write one thing a day – a funny anecdote, a meaningful quote, a story I heard, my thoughts
  5. Get out more. Do anything outside. Walk, bike, rollerblade, take photos, sit and enjoy!
  6. Streamline my possessions (I own too much “stuff”)

That’s all I can think of for now in this attempt to motivate myself. Sometimes, I find that writing things down makes them ‘real,’ ย and I feel more of a responsibility to complete the tasks set out before me.

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