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The middle ground on relaxing is not really a middle ground

I’m finally learning that tasks and obligations and deadlines never end. Whether it’s with work, at home, a favour you’re doing for friends… I still find myself saying “After Saturday, I can relax.” Why is that? Is it because I need to or want to relax? Who doesn’t?! The point is that I continue to have a designated relax time. Why can’t I just always be relaxed?

I don’t think the solution is to not have stuff to do or have projects to complete. I think there is always going to be something I need to get done or something to prepare for, study for, clean for. Because if I didn’t have stuff to do, goals, deadlines, etc., I’d be bored! So what is the middle ground? Is there one?

I have decided that there has to be a point at which I am truly relaxed in every moment in every day of life. Where the fact that I need to get this project done by 4:30 doesn’t stress me out. Where thinking about all the things I still have to do before next week doesn’t make me run around in circles inside my mind… I don’t want to go over the list in my head seven times before bed to remember all the stuff I have to do. I don’t want to stress about timing, that I have to get this and then go there, and be back all within an hour, just so that I am on time for something else.

I will get to that point, or that frame of mind where I realize that everything is going to get done to the best of my ability. Only if I am doing something that I consider to be sub-par (which is completely different than doing something that others judge to be sub-par) am I allowed to stress – a little. I will balance my standards with a healthy expectation of myself.

Wouldn’t it be nice if we could all do that – and it was easy?! But who ever said life was easy 😉 That’s the fun part!

Lists and memories

I’m looking forward to this weekend – I’m going camping! Peace and quiet, nature and self-time.

I always loved camping, seeing as our family of 6 went camping almost every summer for as long as I can remember. We had this BIG orange tent that we all fit in (until us kids started growing too much). It was the ultimate family time together. Living in, cooking in, and exploring the outdoors.

As a family, we would go to the beach, go swimming, go on Dad’s sailboat or the windsurfer (I was too little), go on a hike or a picnic, and get dirty! At night there was the amphitheater, where we would learn about wildlife or watch a movie. We might also hike out to the rocks by the water at night and lie for hours watching the northern lights, or we would have a fire with marshmallows. These were such good times, and I feel lucky that my parents were adventurous enough to take all four of their kids into the wilderness and the dirt for some good family fun!

This weekend I will be exploring a new campground at Valens Conservation area in Flamborough (near Cambridge). They have a man-made reservoir there with a lookout, swimming, hiking, and more! I think it’s going to be a great time 🙂 There are sure to be some pictures (and maybe video) that will get posted here!

In the meantime, it’s time to make some of my famous lists! I’m always making lists so I don’t forget anything, but inevitably something gets left behind. Grocery list, list of clothes to pack, list of camping gear…

Don’t forget: tomorrow is Photo Day! Stay tuned for some great pics 🙂

Checklists – I wish I could just remember to do these things by default

OK, so I just figured out how to schedule a recurring event in my outlook calendar. Why? I have decided that I need to have a daily routine, and I need to write it down – and be reminded of it. I don’t even take breaks at work! I find myself sitting at my desk from 8-4 (and sometimes longer!) without even getting up to go to the washroom! I need to force myself to take breaks, and train myself to do a daily routine.

I feel like I don’t really accomplish anything every day – even the basic things. Like flossing! So here’s my daily (or at least weekdaily) list of things I MUST do:

  1. Brush x 3
  2. Floss
  3. Meditate
  4. Take TWO regular breaks at work
    – 10:15am draw something
    – 2:15pm take at least 30 photos
  5. Take a lunch break and ACTUALLY leave my desk
  6. Post something here
    – anecdotes
    – stuff from my sketchbook
    – photos I took
  7. Read something
  8. Exercise
    – walking
    – biking
    – strength training
    – scooting
  9. Drink 8 glasses of water
  10. Take my multivitamin!

I have attached a PDF of this checklist that I am going to print (multiples of) so that I can check these activities off. Obviously, these are very basic to start – and I plan to develop custom lists of things that come up – hence the extra blank spaces at the end (for now). But I feel like I am very task oriented, and if I NEED to check these things off a list, I will be more motivated to DO them. I figure I will come back and re-evaluate this list and add/edit as needed. Hopefully – I will get to a point where I don’t even NEED the checklist!

Is it odd that I’m 32 and just starting this now?

Let’s see how this goes…


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